“We will run and scream// You will dance with me// They’ll fulfill our dreams// And we’ll be free
And we will be who we are// And they’ll heal our scars // Sadness will be far away
Do not let my fickle flesh go to waste // As it keeps my heart and soul in it’s place // And I will love with urgency but not with haste”
– Mumford and Sons, “Not With Haste”
Isn’t this so true? Of so many of us? I have caught myself choosing to love in quantity rather than quality; to float from person to person even before the interaction is complete in order to be everything to everyone. I cannot. I want to learn to make whoever is in front of me, whoever I am called to love at that specific moment and time, feel as loved and welcome and enjoyed as possible, in order to reflect the smallest bit that I can of how Christ loves and welcomes and enjoys them.
“Wherever you are, be all there” – Jim Elliot.
That man, Mr. Elliot, was full of passion and wisdom and love for Jesus. And him saying this, me reading this, typing it back out, is a reminder that it is not the best way, to be in a rush. To hurry is to deny life in that present moment. I cannot help but conclude as I read how Jesus walked with people and interacted with them, that he loved with urgency but not with haste. I don’t believe he wasted time. I don’t believe he was ineffective. But in his urgency, he did not let it turn to haste. Haste is urgency without peace. And I imagine that being around Jesus was the most peaceful and renewing place the disciples and followers ever experienced – because he cared so deeply for each person that he came across and did not brush by them in his hurry to reach the next place.
The people that are in front of me today, right now, are the ones deserving my attention. being three steps beyond wherever I am or whatever conversation i am in only robs me of the pleasure of seeing Jesus in those interactions.
Help me slow down, Jesus. Help me to love well, even if it is at the expense of loving many.